So, Mozart’s triumphant return home from the vet on Thursday segued into a Friday in which he would not eat, and would not drink. Two tongue-laps of tuna juice was all that we could get into him; he was clearly miserable, and spent a good bit of the morning and early afternoon Under Things. I called the vet to give the follow-up report, fully expecting to hear; “Bring him in; it’s time.”
But the vet had one more trick up his sleeve — prednisone, which, he said, would calm Mozart’s stomach, and also increase his appetite. Asyouknowbob, it’s also a steroid and very hard on the kidneys, and Mozart is in kidney failure. Steve did go into town to pick up the medicine, since the run of treatment is seven days. He may, says the vet, become seduced back to eating in seven days.
So, we’re doing it, but I worry that we may have crossed a line. We have, when confronted with The Choice in the past, always erred on the side of No Suffering. We do everything we can during their lives to be sure that our cats live in a place where Nothing Bad Happens To Cats. We try to be sure that they cross when they are ready; we haven’t ever tried to prolong their stay into the place where there’s no joy, just because it’s hard to say good-bye. In retrospect, I think we kept Socks with us a little too long. Had we had the cancer diagnosis sooner. . .but the vets were — as they should have been — looking for horses instead of zebras, and we could only do the best we knew how.
Mozart. . .is fading. We know he’s not going to “get better.” I just wish I had a better handle on where he is, and how he feels.
So, that. . .
Writing is happening; and a book is taking form, a surprising book in a number of ways. It always amazes me how logical my backbrain is, in its own chaotic fashion.
In Archers Beach news: This is a Distant Early Warning for those folks who want to have a signed or signed-and-personalized copy of Carousel Seas to go with their signed or signed-and-personalized copy of Carousel Sun: Uncle Hugo will again be taking preorders for signed books. This is a DISTANT EARLY WARNING, not a Call to Action. Actual pre-ordering will not open until after Labor Day. We’ll tell you when.
And? I think that’s all the news that’s fit to print.